Airing My Dirty Laundry...

I'm not perfect. For a long time, I've tried to be. It's not working out so well.

My house is a hot mess right now. Part of it is because we're switching Jacob's room and the craft room, but part of it is just because I'm lazy that way. I have 7 totes of craft junk stacked in my bedroom right now, waiting for a new home. Half of Jacob's furniture is in one room, half in the other. Oh, well.

I cannot stay on a schedule with laundry or the dishwasher. I ran the dishwasher 3 times today, and the sink still has a handfull of dishes in it.

We're looking for a church. We've been drifting for a while, trying to find one where we feel comfortable. There are 100+ churches in this town, it shouldn't be that hard.

I'm still having difficulty dealing with my miscarriage. Today, I yelled at Steve for no real reason, then burst into tears. Some days I don't think about the miscarriage, other days I can't think about anything else.

Jacob isn't paying attention in school for some reason. I think he's bored with the work. We moved about 2 years ago, and his old school was much further ahead. No child left behind, my big toe. I wish I could get Steve on board with the idea of homeschooling.

I'm procrastinating writing a paper about the effects of advertising on the entitlement mentality of generation Y. Yeah, it sounds boring to me, too.

I ate 6 lindor truffles today, and they were good. I didn't even feel guilty for more than a second.

I'm ticked off at Apple. Jacob got an Ipod for Christmas, and it won't hold a charge. I shipped it back, and got an email today saying there was nothing wrong with it, they're shipping it back as is.

I did manage to cook 2 meals today. 3 if you count the toast I made to go with the yogurt for breakfast. Hamburgers and homefries for lunch, salisbury steak, mac n cheese, and green beans for supper.

I also managed to clean out and inventory the pantry and freezer. Only tossed a 1 box of Ritz crackers that were expired last May, and some shrimp that had freezer burn, so I've done okay on rotating our stock. I think we're up to about 4 months of supplies at the moment.

I paid all the bills, painted 3 shelves to go in Jacob's new SpongeBob themed bedroom, and did a couple loads of laundry. I have been productive, yet I feel like I've accomplished nothing.

I think far too often bloggers only want to present a rose-colored picture of their lives. I've read some of my past posts, and see that I have done that, too. I need to stop. I'm not perfect. I'm not SuperMom or SuperWife. But I'm pretty darn good at both of those jobs. Yes, I do get impatient. I lose my temper and sometimes I yell. But overall, we have a lot of fun together, our little family of 3 humans and 2 critters. And I shall focus on that, and not worry about having a perfect house or perfect anything. Our house is clean enough to be healthy, and dirty enough to be home.

Cause let's face it. That whole perfect...it ain't happenin' here.